Limecreme

2011-11-11T08:46:00.000-08:00

Switched on msn this afternoon when I was using comp to do cheatsheet.
Saw an offline msg that made my day.
(though the msg was sent last week)
Hahahahaha. Totally didn't see offline msg.
Arghhhhh. Can't wait for exams to be over!
I want to go for titanic exhibition,
Have English breakfast,
Work for $!
Catch up with friends.
Watch teevee, watch movie, read books and be stress-free!
Anyways, plan is to work for 2 weeks and enjoy for 2 weeks.
Provided that they love me enough to select me for the job.
Though that will means that I will miss my sushi buffet which I'm supposed to go with the girls.
And my skin complexion is mad horrid now!
Emo max.
Btw, I still don't know who is nice enough to accompany me for the exhibition!
Don't know any hard-core fan of titanic :(
(I used to be damn hard-core about titanic
My email before jailing_cky was titanic_marine
But change it cause it's too childish.
Btw, my email is karischeong@gmail.com cause people keep asking me why jiaying.
Chinese name also have to explain meh???
And oh yea! I want to sun-tan with my girls!
It was such an awesome experience!
And I want to go Langkawi! :(

2011-11-10T09:16:00.000-08:00

Was doing my cheatsheet and suddenly my mind drift to Korea and I wondered why.
Then i suddenly realize its because i'm using white musk lotion!
AH! Totally spammed the lotion when I was in Korea, thus the smell always remind me of it.
(usually use Victoria Secret's lotion nowadays)

Anyways, Jiayous for cheat sheet!

2011-11-08T09:29:00.000-08:00

Ermmmm... Talked to a friend today.
(cause he's inviting me for barker carnival).
And I realize he have really change.
Maybe not it's adulthood that morph him into such a person.
But anyway, too much to elaborate.

Btw, I was all hyped to see his golden retriever when he invited me to his house.
But it just strike me that it's not such a good idea afterall.
And then again, i suddenly realize I'm overthinking.
I realize all these stupid shut-stirring has really got me cautious.
To make me think that it's a bad thing to go his house when we're not THAT close.
But suddenly, I'm thinking... What's the big deal?
Actually it's nothing what.
Catch up with a friend and visit his dog, that's all.
Sigh. University has really complex things.
Something as simple as friendship can be so complex.

Frankly speaking, i think he would be a great doctor.
Despite his aggrogance, he's actually a nice guy.
Frankly speaking, I've never dislike him before.
Even back then.
Because though he's too cocky, I can understand that with his intelligence and wealth.
But the thing is. He helps people and isn't judgmental.

But anyways, all te eat to him.

Btw. S birthday party and carnival.
Both on Saturday.
Sian max!
Ad you realize that I'm so good at pangseh-ing people?
I swear I'm goingto lose all my Friends one day.

錯過

2011-11-07T09:02:00.000-08:00

很多人說過人是因為不了解而在一起，而因為太了解而分開。
但是，難道你沒發現人常常用不了解而分開嗎？
看了＇那些年我們一起追過的女孩＇，最讓我感動的竟然是三個字：
＇他不懂＇。
-.-''' i give up writing in Chinese.
Its mad exhausting.
Cannot imagine the amount of time+effort spent on the above paragraph.

After watching the movie, the most puzzling part of the movie was-
If he really like that girl that much,
Why wouldnt he let the girl understand him?
If he likes her, he would do all things to make things work,
Wouldn't him?
If he didn't attempt to clear things up,
Then maybe fear>love?

If he doesn't let te girl understand him,
Then how can he blame the girl for leaving him?
If he didn't explain why he want to hold the competition,
The girl would forever think he's childish and leave him.
He didn't explain that he did it for her.
If he did, I'm sure the situation would be different.
If he bother to explain himself,
If he bother to confess despite the risk if losing her,
The ending would have been different.
But he allow fear to override him.

And I actually cried quite a bit at the end of the movie.
I guess that's when I actually relate the movie to my own story.
(but lights on, then mUst control la)

The movie reminds me of tracy's story.
How sad it is when 2 person like each other at the same time and miss the timing.
And they can never find the feeling again.

But anywas. Everytime I cry makes my heart more numb.
Now I feel quite immune aldy.
And looking back at those times I cry,
I start to don't get why I used to cry.
Haha. I guess it's right.
Every time your heart shatters abit, it gets tougher a bit.
Who knows, maybe one day I will cease to feel. (:

2011-11-06T21:24:00.001-08:00

Omg! Guess what?
I found dinotopia online!
Tooooooooot!
Hope it's the edition I've been looking for!

2011-11-06T09:45:00.000-08:00

Wow. It's seriously amazing how we click so well.
Kettle and I were actually thinking of the same movie.
Okay. I've never told anyone before but I used to love this movie alot.
But it's pretty unheard of and it's a very old show.
Frankly speaking, the show is so old,
I forgot what I like about it.
But I only rmbed that I love it ALOT.
thought of buying it even,
But I googled 'dinotopia' and it looks unfamiliar.
And I was talking to him about terra nova
And he told me about how terra nova actually resemble dinotopia.
And I was quite 'omg-ish' cause dinotopia is the movie that made me fall in love with dinosaurs.
(and only very few people know/rmb it)

I know this is the millionth time I get shock with how similar we are,
In terms of interest.
But everytime I will still be very surprise.
But anyways, he told me he will teach me how to dl the movie.
But as usual, I doubt he will.
(alot of people promise to teach me how to use excel before, kettle included)
But somehow, we always never do it.
But oh well, he got my number this time round and says he will give me a call next week so that we can meetup and he will teach me.
And so I hope this means...
I CAN WATCH DINOTOPIA!
okay. Who knows. I might get myself a gaming partner.
That would be fun cause I miss playig games sooooo much!

Yes. Stupid friend last time really got me hooked.
Keep going to arcade with my friend last year.
And I'm itching to LAN/Arcade but I dont have people to go with.

Sian. Why my comp cannot support leh.
I want to play GTA leh.
:(

2011-11-04T08:00:00.001-07:00

Is it true that when the opportunity go by,
You won't be able to relive the moment again?

Oh my fish?

2011-11-03T05:34:00.000-07:00

*pull-hair state*
alright.
Kinda pleased with this sem progress.
Left with only 4 chapters for electronics for revision!
And the best thing?
I sort of understand OP-AMP quite well,
So the later part should be a breeze.
(love electronics man!)

Biomaterials isn't that tough
And bio-core still prove to be my most challenging subject!

Shall study biochem for tml.
And I think Saturday will be fluids day (:

Btw. I need a porepack desperately!
It's as essential as pens and food.
But just something that you cannot find in NTU!!!
Arch. Feels like a hall resident here.
Lol.
But ganbatte.
Quite confident this sem!
:D

2011-11-02T10:06:00.001-07:00

Really feel more confident about this sem.
Hope it's not false hope.
Aja Aja hwaiting!

Btw. Highlight everyday is actually thinking of what to eat for breakfast/lunch/dinner.
-.-
But I actually found some decent food in CanteenA.
Like the salmon sashimi
It's a good substitute for sashimi.
But problem is that I hate to eat rice.
But the salmon is pretty good.
:D
Also, I found that the meatball kway tiao soup is nice.
Saw aiting eating it and has been craving for it ever since!
Ever since the kukup trip,
I fell in love with kway tiao soup.
(I'm always like his)
If I found anything nice, I would keep eating it.
Like the ban mian in canteen A,
the bee hoon downstairs, at my house
The seafood fried rice.
I eat so often until the aunties would recongize me.
Imagine, when I was hooked to seafood fried rice,
I was primary school.
And when I brought my friend there last sem,
She would still ask 'your bf ah?'(nope)
Haha. So funny. She literally watched me grow up.

Okay. Study electronics before dd come home :D

Trust

2011-11-01T10:18:00.000-07:00

Trust, small word but great meaning.
Someone used to ask me 'do you trust people?'
And I confidently said yes.
I used to believe that as long as you place someone in your social circle,
When you consider someone as your friend,
Then you should trust that person.
Otherwise, what's the meaning of the friendship?
If you start to distrust people,
Isn't life going to be tough for you?

However, as life goes on,
As disappointment grew,
Im sad to say it's not the case.
Yes, I still upload my theory of innocent until proven guilty.
I will trust people that I'm friends with...
Someone deem it another way,
That trust have to be earned.
So with time, their trust factor will increase.
But I work the opposite way.
My trust factor is full when I rope that person into my life,
But with every disappointment, the trust level will decrease.
Actually... It's not a theory that I come up with,
But it's just that I realize that from experience,
I sort of appear this way.

You know, it's extremely silly win people ask me why I don't trust them.
Maybe they should ask themselves why I lost my trust in yen.
If you chose to hide the fact from me,
When you chose to lie,
What am I suppose to do?
When you betray my trust,
When you made me lose faith in you.

On another hand, today someone made me think any something.
I've always been thinking why someone isn't willin to compromise when I'm doing alot.
But today, a friend was suddenly saying how someone actually did something for me
(which frankly speaking, I cannot remember)
And I realize... Could it be that I've actually overlooked how nicethat person has been to be?
Okay, I'm someone who gets touched easily,
I recognize what people has done for me,
For I feel that I don't deserve any of them.
But for people whom I feel close with,
I tend to take that for granted.

Frankly speaking, I'm really quite scared that oneday I will take people's kinds for granted.
Maybe that's why I believe I don't deserve any of that.
I grew up in a place whereby I'm the youngest.
People's attention evolve around me.
So I wanted to make sure that when I grow up,
I will not behave that the whole world revolve around me,
Cause it doesnt.

Okay. Abrupt end.
Hope people will stop using people and start counting your own blessing.
Hohoho! It's Christmas soon an it's the season to be joyful!
:D

2011-10-30T21:14:00.001-07:00

Looking at a friend's photo Albumn and I gotta say...
France is suchhhhhh a beautiful place (:

Really, really want to go there someday.
Be it grad trip or probably exchange if I can pull up my gpa.

There's so many places I wanna go.
Paris, venice, Palau(swim with the jellyfish!), malu(?)that place in selangor with the largest bat cave.
Island hopping in Thailand,
The alps in Swiss,
Soooooooo much to do!
Why is the world so beautiful!!!
:D

2011-10-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

... Continued because iPod died on me.
-.-'''
But realize that I got nothing to write.
Sometimes, it's really jing zai bu yan zhong...

Ps: very exhausted.

2011-10-29T11:44:00.000-07:00

Okay. I swear this is v random.
Why do people who never used to talk/work with me before suddenly being so random and friendly?

2011-10-29T06:13:00.000-07:00

This is so hilarious.
I'm starting to get closer to a friend AFTER he went to Aussie.
Reason? We both got twitter account.
Damn lame pls!
Hahahahaha!
Alright. FINALLY! J passed me the cheque.
And he's asking me to work again.
Yes. I swear that if he ask me one more time,
I will feel bad and actually work for him.
Lol.
Haven't been shopping for long.
Realize the bulk of my expenditure really goes to shopping.
(and social activities)
Now that i don't go out that frequent,
I can still cab and eat good food and actually save,
Just based on my own allowance.
Ermmm...
Btw, glad I got closer a few people,
Though it isn't a lot.
It's so cool that we were so chatty that night,
Me and airing.
And I start to talk quite a bit with my senior.
Btw, I feel so cheated.
Ytd while eating dinner, I receive a text to ask me to report for TD at 0830.
And when I woke up, another senior texted 'why are you still alone?! TD at 0830'
Then I realize it's all a ploy to get me there at 0830...
To chop place -.-

hahaha. But anyways,
A few friends touched me recently.
It's like I've been neglecting them due to exams,
And they will randomly drop me a text sayin that they miss me, etc.
Isn't it sooooo sweet?
You know, some noble man used to say that if you have 5 very real, true, close friends,
Then you're considered to be successful in life.
And I realize... I'm damn blessed.
I don't count it as a success because frankly speaking,
I don't deserve them.
I'm a horrible friend who will pangseh or neglect people due to my busy schedule.
But I will try as much as possible to be there for them,
Just like how they have tried to stay in my life.
I love them because they have been so real to me,
And I don't need to hide myself in front of them.
I know if I'm down, thy will be there.
Thanks. (:

Geesh. Bio sucks.

2011-10-26T10:35:00.000-07:00

Quite glad to say that...
at least until now, I dont find myself detestable to people.
And there's quite alot of people who dote on me. (:
Thanks so much.
Was talking to someone this afternoon
and he was rather apologetic that he wasn't there when I needed someone to talk to.
It was REALLY sweet, actually.
Esp when he's like 'You're better off dating me'.
HAHAHAHAH. Its so funny. Feels like having a big brother.

I know I've always said that I don't like it when people told me 'I'll just do it, just for you'.
But sometimes, when people say that, it can be really sweet.
Troubled my friend when I was intending to help out another friend
and he's like 'no worries, its just something small that I can do for you'.
AWWWWWWWWW....
Seriously why my friends all so sweet one hur?
XD
But frankly speaking,
isnt that how friends supposed to be?
Helping out each other and doing whatever they can for another party?
Instead of being so calculative and think of what u can get back from others?
Really la. Its something that triggers off my emo self this week and I know this will continue.

Had a fun time with family today.
But I know that if i continue blogging, I wont get to sleep aldy.
HAHAHAHHA.

Talked to sissy about her new job at HSA.
It sounds soooooo stressful.
But I think Im still thinking of doing biomaterials stuff.

2011-10-25T20:48:00.000-07:00

Sigh. the human nature is indeed very ugly.
But oh well, lets just drop the topic.
Not a good thing to keep harping on the topic.
I can't change people, so I need to accept them.

And at times like this, it would REALLY be nice if he's around.
Sigh.

You know I'm kinda looking forward to next sem,
kinda hoping that things will get better, etc.
But then I'm afraid that I will get my hopes up,
and then realize that things are probably still going to be the same,
or probably worst.
It sucks to give urself hope to push urself forward
but afraid that the hope will eventually leads to disappointment.
tsk. what an irony.

2011-10-23T09:10:00.001-07:00

Idk if I'm reading too much into things or its my accurate 6th sense working its magic again.
But I have a hunch he's into someone else now.
Ermmm....

OKAY. ANYWAYS, QUIZ+TECH COMM.
GG LIAO!

2011-10-20T09:56:00.000-07:00

SO ANGST LA.
SERIOUSLY, WHATS WRONG W HIM???
How can he be angry with me for not understanding him when he always dont tell me things?
Okay la. actually speaking of which, Im also angry w him sometimes for not understanding me.
BUT I THOUGHT THATS THE WHOLE POINT?
People dont understand each other to start out with what.
THATS THE WHOLE EFFKING POINT ABOUT COMMUNICATION.

If you don't communicate with me, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND YOU?
If I dont understand you, then why u scold me????
If I only know part A of your life, I can only assume ur life based on part A.
You didnt let me into part b, c, d of your life, y'know?

TSK. I believe things will work out.
It takes effort and time...
and everything takes 2 hands to clap.

alright. back to workkkkk!
HAHA. today is slack day max.
wasted :/

p.s: sometimes I just wish he will explain himself.

2011-10-18T10:23:00.000-07:00

I realize something.
I'm quite easily misunderstood.
Sometimes I say things without meaning it,
but people interpret it another way.
Sometimes I treat people like a bro,
but I realize I send wrong signal sometimes.
Ermmm... Maybe I should start to mind my words.
Really, I realize I cannot blame people for misunderstanding me...
because sometimes I really say/do things without thinking through.
Btw, busy and shagged max.

2011-10-17T09:50:00.001-07:00

Okay. still cannot get over the shock.
I think Im biased against her.

2011-10-17T09:31:00.000-07:00

TOO SHOCKED ALDY MUST BLOG.
But then I realize even if I blog I also cannot say anything much.
Cause its too sinful to bitch abt her.
Besides, I've been convincing myself not to judge despite everyone telling me how bitchy she is.
Okay la. Shan't judge. Maybe shes just v misunderstood.

Okay. cannot blog about it.
If not I will feel mad guilty to bitch abt people :/

And seriously hor.

Aiyah. Realize that if I practise the habit of not naming names in my blog,
I cannot say anything.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay. Anyways, someone totally showed his bimbotic moment ytd.
He was like 'OMGGG. I DIDNT KNOW U GOT A CHRISTIAN NAME'.
LOL. Funny max. throughout the whole conversation I was -.-ing throughout.

And. I got soooo irritated tdy.
An accquaiantance tried to be friendly on fb.
And KEEP TEXTING ME tho I only replied him ONCE.
Was mad pissed cause I was TD-ing in lib and the phone vibrate non-stop.
He told me 'chat w you next week when Im back from bkk.'
AND I WAS LIKE 'PLEASE LA. DID I EVEN SAY I WANNA TALK TO YOU?'
Then I immediately felt v guilty aldy.
I shouldn't be so mean to people.
Not even thoughts.
But this week I will be angst v easily. So yea. be careful.

AND ARMY STOLE MY BFF AWAY FROM ME!
HE FLEW OVER TO TW WITHOUT TELLING ME.
BETTER BUY STH FOR ME HOR.
Otherwise...!
TSK.

BTW! SUPER HAPPY TODAY CAUSE USUALLY DURING LECTURE ITS PEOPLE DONT UNDERSTAND AND ASK PROF THEN I FOLLOWED.
BUT TODAY ITS I CLARIFIED W PROF AND TEACH MY FRIENDS.
MEGA MILE-STONE.
LOVELY.

WHATS WRONG W ME?

2011-10-16T09:35:00.000-07:00

WHATS WRONG W ME?
I seriously operate by mood.
AND HAVE ZERO SENSE OF URGENCY.
Okay. Look.
I have an abstract thats due on Monday (which I forgot)
2 lab reports thats due on Wednesday (sort of done w informal)
3 quiz thats in 2 weeks time.
AND GUESS WHAT IVE BEEN DOING?
ELECTRONICS!
YES.
AND WHATS THE MOST RIDICULOUS THING ABT IT?
The prof is so slack I have zero quiz, zero homework and only 2 MASS tutorials for it.
And then why am I studying electronics?
Its like seriously dammmmmnnn superrrrr far off.
Okay la. Actually I think maybe except for the formal lab report,
everything's pretty alright.
Like, seriously!
I mean quiz can still study when the week starts.
Informal I'm sort of done and abstract can rush.
BUT I REALLY DONT HAVE THE MOOD TO DO LABREPORT.
I HATE MESSING WITH EXCEL.
Excel is like my enemy :(
I hate drawing graph.
Or rather, I STILL DONT KNOW HOW TO DRAW GRAPH.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
What a cui engineer.
I realize I havent been realizing my resolution,
which is to learn how to draw graphs.
HAHAHAHAHA.
OMGGGG. So many people promised to teach me but in the end never lo.
(hahahahaha. because I dont really meet them also la. All diff course)
BURRRR~~~

Btw, sis bday celebration was totally fab!
glad sissy enjoyed it.
Spent it with Sissy and Ryan stayed over.
We had dinner at a really fab place. the food was omg effking good.
Their presentation, service, etc was super restaurant.
the only thing is they dont have air-con. HAHAHAHA.
No wonder its featured on teevee la. DAMN GOOOOOD.
After which, we proceed to sing k.
HAHAHAHA. It was actually inside a pub.
And people dedicated clubbing songs suddenly, so while waiting for our room,
it almost felt like clubbing.
Ordered erdinger and shared w parents.
BTW, Dad's singing is HORRIBLE.
He sang at different pace!
Sang 'wo wen tian' w Daddy.
EVERYONE LAUGHED UNTIL TUMMYACHE!!!
I tried my very best to sing in dialect while dd sang in chinese.
DIFF PITCH, DIFF LANGUAGE, DIFF PACE!
SERIOUSLY????? HAHAHAHAH.
Went home at 1+am and knocked out at 3am.

Woke up, feeling v happy over everything and glad everything was real (:
Had breakfast w the family (+Ryan)
Had a cosy time together in bro's room where we watched BBC KNOWLEDGE tgt.
AWESOMEEE.
Feel so loved (:

p.s: Coussy returned from Tw aldy,
Bro's going Tw soon.
And Ryan's half Taiwanese.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. SOOOO KEWL!

And Im glad Aunt found a job in the bank aldy.
Really hope life's great for Bryan and Jonathan.
Its not easy being raised in a broken family like this.
And Aunt had to rent a room and support the family on her own when she used to be a housewife.
May God bless them (:

1 week have past.

2011-10-13T08:10:00.000-07:00

Alright. 1 week have past.
I still didnt manage to get my iPod screencover changed.
Ugly max.
Been quite a while since I last went home early.
Yesterday was the only exception, I guess.
But seriously, I've got no energy at all to do the screencover thing.
But I enjoyed TD companionship. (:
Went supper with them 2 days back.
It was pretty fun though I had to cab to school the next morning.
Mad shagged.
Studied with year2,3,4 mech engine people today.
Yes. Coincidentally.
Even Jayren who joined us for dinner is from mech engine.
So makes it year2,3,4 and post grad.
Lol.
Wheeeeees. And Jayren's been driving.
Hahahaha. Good la. But abit paiseh to trouble him.

Actually I would have done this last year if not for tabby cat.
I really feel awkward with him around...
ESP with all the stirring going on.
I'm actually quite a shy person,
Though I don't appear like j am...
Still remember that one day when we bought dinner (subway for me, Mac for him)
And after I bought, I couldn't find him.
But he was with some ODAC ppl and I didn't dare to approach him.
Instead, I hide behind somewhere to text him where to eat.
Haha. Yea. Guess he will never know how comfortable I felt back then.
Like, he used to say we can hang out with groups instead,
And I'm like 'errrr...' cause frankly speaking,
I feel v uncomfortable la.

Actually now I feel quite confused.
What's happening?
Is he avoiding or what?
How could someone's behavior changed so much?
Wanted to blog about some new variety show initially,
But was too tired last night.
And suddenly lose the mood to...
So...
Hahahaha.

And I suddenly remembered talking to Jayren about something last time.
Like, I used to talk alot to him cause he's like quite matured and give pretty good advice.
Like, he told me to sort things out with R the other time because I said I plan to just leave things behind and move on.
And by moving on, it meant being cold to that person and maybe just suddenly disappear from his life.
He told me that if I did what I wanted to do,
The person involved will just go 'Wtf just happened?'
And the confusion will worsen things.
And frankly speaking,
I swear that it's Effking karma.
Now I'm at the end of 'WTF just happened'
Really hoped sometimes that people don't play guessig games and say things out.
That's why sometimes after knowing someone, I will tell him at the spot 'I will never like you' or 'let's just be friend's
I mean, I'm pretty alright if people say 'we can only be friend's
In fact, sometimes I force my male friends who make our relationship ambiguous to say that.
But problem is. Guys loves to make things lingering.
Like, even if they don't like you,
They will want to leave their options open.
I really don't understand why.

And speakig of which,
I think someone freaked me out this afternoon.
My really close guy friend somemore.
We were talking about my friend's BGR issue.
And I told him that I'm good at picking up traces.
I have good 6th sense to detect that someone like someone else.
Then he suddenly turn to me and say 'but you're not good at detecting if someone like you'
For the moment, I was like 'if he's ever going to like me oneday I might just hang myself'
Not like he suck or anything, but really, bestfriends will only stay as bestfriends.
And the thing is, if anything complicates, it will make things v awkward.
But actually I think he's just nice to me because of his character la hor.
Cannot be anything else la.
We're just good friends.

Okay la. Mega shagged and I still have Projects tml.
Shall head for bed.

Btw, happy cause many events coming up! :D

2011-10-12T10:10:00.001-07:00

I want to go Langkawi one day.

2011-10-12T09:45:00.000-07:00

Life have been busy, busy, busy.
TD for the past few days and my Friday is gonna be burnt.
But oh well, it's better to clear them off than to struggle with it,
Like how some of my friends are doing right now.

I seriously think I need to cultivate a habit of readig 'the guardian'.
They contain articles that are written with depth.
Read an article that is about men's rape in Africa after someone posted it on fb.
And I have to say... I never knew guys have an issue with rapes till now.
And seriously, I have to say that it's impossible to totally eradicate social norms
I mean, can you imagine a society whereby it's alright for guys to be weak and vulnerable?
But it's the social norms that made it more difficult for men to deal with such issues.

On a happier note,
I finished my lab report.
On a more depressing note,
I haven't touch last week's report.
Hahahahaha. I think my progress bar seriously depend on my mood lo.

Btw, going for 1 star kayak!
Wheeeeee!
But j haven't pay me leh.
Biscuit la! Why he owe me $ for sooooo long!
My savings is depleting Liao!

Oh! And today shhh.
Yak.
Stupid cat lo. Asked him to wait for a while also cannot.
Damn biscuit lo! Argh. Angst!

Whatever. Heck!
My Kuching trip is open to te public!
Soooooo mad happy. Feels like my baby has hatched.
Frankly speaking, I RESLLY recommend Kuching.
Super duper worth the money.
(I swear on my life)
But thing is, I don't want to go again now cause they still need to finalize stuff...
Have to wait for semi for stong!
Regret not going last time.
Hahaha!

Okay. Need to do my bio tutorial.
Ciao, world.

2011-10-10T09:31:00.000-07:00

Urgh! What am I doing??!!
Tsk. Still so concerned about him.
And when I stumbled across a quote,
My mind immediately go to him.
'it's cute when guys get jealous
But when girls get jealous, it's WW2 all over again'.
And I thought of how things were when he was jealous.
It was really really cute and sweet.
Haha. But oh well, that was the past.
He's so cold and everything.
Bet even if I disappear he also wouldn't notice.
But his attitude really makes every chat an upsetting moment.
Feel like I've been frozen all over.
But I'm more concerned that I might be annoying.
So yea, guess I won't be talking so often to him.

But btw, life's really fab now.
Busy with projects and I've been staying back for TD.
Okay. Should stop making myself sound so noble,
I've only started today...
Doing a lect that I've skipped this morning.
Lol! But it's a great achievement.
Especially my tech comm project.
Seriously, for the first time, tech comm makes me feel like it's my baby project.
Well, I've it to say probably things was easier for me since I speared the idea,
And it's the exact same thing as PW in A levels.
But frankly speaking, it hasn't been easy working with the guys.
They asked for perfection.
Suggested the idea but when the transsiion wasn't smooth,
The whole idea had to be scraped or improved on.
Working with the Ac people was a totally diff experience.
Things were more laid-back,
People are too cool for school, ideas flow, no lack of creativity,
Things just happened.
But there's a risk.
You feel like there's no sense of professionalism and no control of things.
But with the guys, things have to be precise.
We can't have the let's just see what happens attitude,
But more like we got to do this attitude.
So really, it's very satisfying to see how we work tgt to nail our problems.
That's what I love about projects.
Facing problems and working tgt to work it out.
Hahahaha. Can't believe I wrote a whole chunk on projects.
But anyways, the project is making me look forward to working life.
(:

2011-10-08T22:49:00.000-07:00

I realize that the people I htht with always come up with this conclusion.
I get touched very easily.
And everyone of them says that it's a bad thing,
Cause I get taken advantage of easily.
Horrible but true :/

Enjoyed my day out yesterday.
Was only intending to stay till end of family day,
But I went for rochor, dinner and even the htht session.
My mood was very awesome that day!
Until...
Then my mood just suddenly plunged.
Like, when I was at SMU,
I suddenly just started stoning.
If not for zhengkai who suddenly kajiao and snatch my Hanna away,
I might have just stoned throughout.
But the moment I went to Rochor, I was totally stoning.
Even eirene also notice and Jinhao claimed that I wasn't being myself.
But oh well, I quickly recovered in NBA and we laughed alot.
Until... Someone raise up the topic again...

But oh well... I didn't know I will be upset by it.
But guess the fact that things really changed made me slightly upset.
Really hope things between us is still like how it was,
Its like somehow though we're still talking,
But he feels so cold and distanced now.

Ermmm...
But oh well, I guess for the moment I shall be a workaholic to take my minds off things for the moment.
Alot of people ask me to consider other people, etc.
But they don't understand.
It's not about how good or bad someone is.
It's easy to find someone richer, charming, smarter,
But it's the feelings that matter.

But oh well, time to mug (:

2011-10-07T06:58:00.000-07:00

SO HAPPY! (:
Cramp got better with hot shower.
Still doing tech comm project though...
And seriously, I'm like exploding with diabetes soon.
SERIOUSLY, WHY IS EVERYONE SOOOOO SWEEET???
Suddenly fb is like sprouting w couples all over!~
And everyone's sooooo sweet.
(Told bro that and he's like 'sweet meh?')
HAHAHAHAHA.
OMGGG. Can't wait to tell my girlfriends about it.
They're very much like me, happy over other ppl's joyful moments <3

But the thing is, I've gotta admit it's not THAT awesome to see couples when u're single.
But oh wells, whats meant to be will be la.
HAHAHAHA. But still so happy and speechless for them!
WHEEEEEEEEEEESSS!

Went through the genting photos with my friends last night.
HAD 3 CRAZY CONVERSATIONS AT THE SAME TIME.
(WITH SAME GRP OF PEOPLE AT THE SAME TIME!)
2 photo comments and 1 fb chat with the guys at the same time!
Like totally pointless and random!!!
OMG. BEEN A LONG WHILE SINCE I DONE THAT!
SO DAMN FUNNYYYY
Haha. Ended the night with a warm fuzzy feeling.
MY FRIENDS MADE ME FEEL SOOOO LOVED.

URGH. But got an issue abt the 21st bday party.
Supposed to have a joint celebration at Bintan Villa with gf,
but I came up with a sudden crazy idea of spending our weekends in HK for 2 days.
But gf keep saying that she dont know what she wants.
AIYOOO. Dont like it when ppl tell me they dont know lehhh.
But I believe things will turn out fine (:

LIFE ROCKS, ROCK ON! :D

P/S: Like that how ah? Grad trip should I travel w the uni girls clique or the main clique?
OR I SHOULD JUST SAVE MONEY FOR BOTH!!!

-----------------
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!
THEY ARE TOGETHER ALDY!
SERIOUSLY SOOOOO MANY OF THEM!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET

URGH.

2011-10-07T04:14:00.000-07:00

OMGGG.
WHY HAS IT GOT TO BE TODAY?
Sucks being a woman :(

Was totally looking forward to this weekend.
ALL THE HAPPENINGS!
My mood is gonna be SOOOOOO dampened.

OHMYGAWD.
I swear someone should just kill me NAOOO!!!
Literally rolling around in bed cause I drank ice cold pink guava juice just now! :(
ANGST MAX! Why did I think its okay?!

ARGH. To think that I was soooooo happy this morning.
YEPYEP! Was really very happy since ytd! :D
Because I've cleared my thoughts.
Was initially kinda upset because I was upset.
Yea, was stressed and some issues sort of leads to depression.
And I was upset that I was upset because I've always linked depression w losers.
I mean, people are supposed to be cheerful and joyful and think that life is full of hope, no?
Especially for youths.
Only losers think that life is gloomy and etc.
But I was so happy that my day totally cleared with the end of the quiz.
SO YEA. It shows that I'm a cheerful person by nature. LOL. wth.

And the reason why I was upset was because I doubted myself.
Idk. Someone's reaction actually convinced me that I was a failure.
He totally made me feel like a total introvert who's friendless, and emo kid.
I ALMOST BELIEVED THAT IM SUCH A PERSON.
YES. ALMOST.
But oh well, I don't have to convince him that I'm not.
But I know that I'm not (:

Alright, life's beyond perfect now...
... only if I didn't kena this.
Alright. Actually it wouldn't be.
Sigh. AIYO. Have also complaint of pain, don't have in the future will complain.
WHATS UP WITH ME.
TSK. HARD TO PLEASE.

2011-10-05T06:58:00.001-07:00

This is so weird.
When I needed someone to talk to,
The one I eventually I talk to is pottie,
Though we aren't exactly close.
I guess sometimes, you really need someone out of your social circle to talk to (:

2011-10-04T07:03:00.001-07:00

shagged. max.
Need a shoulder.

2011-10-02T00:27:00.000-07:00

So cool. I actually found someone I'm uncanningly similar to.
I mean, usually I find someone who shares similar idea with me
But this time round, he actually have similar interest, childhood and even the things we do.
Isn't it awesome max?
Okay. And I got to say that so far the songs and movies that he intro-ed me,
I really kinda like it (:

Was listening to M2M ytd night and memories keep flooding back.
Can't really say how much this song means to me
Because
(1) no words can describe the freedom, the fun, the craziness and the friendships (and relationship) that I had.
Those were the craziest part of my life.
Loved it, missed it, never regret it.
<3

2011-09-29T10:31:00.000-07:00

Suddenly feel like playing a woodwind instrument!
But $$$$! :(
I'd rather go for a trip than to buy an instrument.
Sighhh.
Sadistic as it sounds,
I miss the ulcer that I used to have from playing my clarinet.
But clarinet looks too unglam.
Thinking of saxophone, flute or violin.
Okay. After I end this year first.
Lol.

2011-09-29T09:30:00.000-07:00

I'm really mad horrible at mugging in the day.
It's really not my sort of thing.
So yea, have decided to mug at night...
Which seem rather impossible with sissy's presence.
Argh.
Thank god she's not in today.

Btw, cousy is in Taiwan now!
She whatsapp-ed me on her first night.
Gawd. So happy for her. :D
And feel so loved that she bother to talk to me (:

Anyways, good news and bad news.
Good news is that I can use psea for GSS.
Bad news is that it's after year2
And gawd, year2, you're suchhhhhh a bitch!
Seriously, it deprived me of the mood for a social life.
Rejected 5 groups of outing this week.
Really. It's so omgggg.
I need a life.

Anyway, first chat in a week.
Thank god not awkward but certainly feels so cold.
Oh well, why should I even care, right?

2011-09-28T11:34:00.000-07:00

Great men think about IDEAS
Average men think about THINGS
Small men think of people

It have always been my wish to be a robot.
To be nonchalent about everything, but I realize... its not that easy.
2 mins ago, I got a very huge reaction about something I thought didn't matter to me.
It's a dream that I no longer tell anyone.
An impossible dream, maybe.
But I've never know that I still aspire so much about it.
Until I realize everytime I see that word, I will stump and get all my attention on it.
But oh well, at least I'm doing something related. (:

Now the focus of my life should be...
Family, Dreams, Friends.
Nothing else (:

Live, Laugh, Love.
Karis, remember, you lose the joy of living if you cease to feel.
X, Karis.

2011-09-28T05:27:00.000-07:00

I'm really not someone who's good at handling stress.
When I have alot of things on my hand,
Likelihood I won't get anything done at all.
I will trapped myself up,
Reject the entire world.
Yea, I know it's healthy but I suck at chillax.

Anyways. I think I need to set some goals to push myself forward.
(1) cgpa 3.5 by this year
(2) Korea at the end of the academic year.
(3) No r/s woes till end of year
(4) A for biomaterials, mechanics and tech comm
(5) Enjoy my 21st

Slightly longer-term goal:
(1) Europe grad trip
(2) grad with min 3.5, preferably 4.0
(3) join the turtle conservatory project

Long term goal:
(1) overseas property investment within first 5 working years
(2) buy a condo
(3) visit the alps
(4) kids! :D (idk. But actually looking forward to motherhood. It's like so exciting!)
(5) pets (:
(6) marry my soulmate, preferably 1.5-2 years after enterting the workforce.

Haha. I think most of the marriage/family stuff is just there for fun.
Afterall, it all depends on fate.
But yep! So gonna work hard! Gannatteeee! :D

2011-09-27T06:57:00.000-07:00

Will delete previous posts from time to time when I feel that I've revealed my emotions too much.
But anyways, need tons of motivation this time round.
BECAUSE...
(1) 2/3 quiz next week
(2) Lab report
(3) Essay to write.

I really want to do well this time round (:

Anyways, I realize that I sort of forgotten everything that I've studied for Biofluid -.-
Look through and I've got like vague memories.
And you know, when u sort of know something, u feel lazy to revise.
But its not enough knowledge for you not to revise.
-.-'''

The Story of the Butterfly
A man found a cocoon of a butterfly.
One day a small opening appeared.
He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours
as it struggled to squeeze its body through the tiny hole.
Then it stopped, as if it couldn't go further.
So the man decided to help the butterfly.
He took a pair of scissors and
snipped off the remaining bits of cocoon.
The butterfly emerged easily but
it had a swollen body and shriveled wings.
The man continued to watch it,
expecting that any minute the wings would enlarge
and expand enough to support the body,
Neither happened!
In fact the butterfly spent the rest of its life
crawling around.
It was never able to fly.
What the man in his kindness
and haste did not understand:
The restricting cocoon and the struggle
required by the butterfly to get through the opening
was a way of forcing the fluid from the body
into the wings so that it would be ready
for flight once that was achieved.
Sometimes struggles are exactly
what we need in our lives.
Going through life with no obstacles would cripple us.
We will not be as strong as we could have been
and we would never fly.

Jiayou, Karis. XX